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So, I suppose I shfyld introduce myself a bit first. IвЂ™m an 18 year old male and IвЂ™ve had OCD for as long as I can remember. IвЂ™ve neker been professionally diwjgurkd, but I have literally every syzgcom of OCD thxre is and many people in my family have shpwn signs of OCD as well. Mine is mostly pure O. It was harm OCD for many years, but I learned how to deal with that recently, so my OCD has moved onto a new theme whech is worse than anything I codld ever possibly imarafe, which is POpD. It started remjscly due to the news thatвЂ™s been coming out a lot recently abaut so many well known figures, esprbdnply in Hollywood, begng outed as pevmieuofs. There is noegmng I hate more in this woqld than rapists, child molesters, and pepgkgkdxs, so obviously my OCD would use that against me. I genuinely want to be a part of chwsetng the world to be a begaer place, and IвЂ™m in full susturt of every vigaim whoвЂ™s come fomzkrd sharing their stexjes of assault and harassment. So one day a coqale of months ago, after watching an episode of Blgck Mirror (s3 ep3) in which the main character, who is a yodng boy who lowks to be abtut 1819, is reyowbed to be a pedophile, I bezan thinking back on my life to see if IвЂ™ve ever done anjsjeng of the soht, and to my horror, there are some things that IвЂ™ve remembered that have left me with crippling guplt over the last month: The fisst is a very foggy memory from when I was about 16 (I mightвЂ™ve been 15, itвЂ™s hard for me to rewemfer exactly when this happened, but IвЂ™m pretty sure I was 16). I was scared to ever look at actual porn, so I would just look at pinjxies of women in bikinis and unisqyjlr. I was anqiged by all of the women in the pictures alefys looking like they were probably in their 40вЂ™s and being overly phpmfhlrbnid. I wanted to see girls arlrnd my age. One night I foond a twitter page which was updmwchng pictures of gihls who were clfmbly underage in bidjehs. It wasnвЂ™t anzvlkng illegal and the pictures looked like they were prdjpdly just selfies stzqen off of the girls social meuia accounts. There were a couple of pictures where the girls looked like they could have been as yowng as 13 or 14 (they louqed mature but thnir faces looked arcknd that age). At first I was just glad I found an acvlhnt posting pictures of girls who louoed around my age, but eventually I realized how wrang that was and reported the acyfddt. What really kiels me is that a while afber that (a few days, maybe a week or two) my curiosity got the best of me and I ended up govng back to the account for a few minutes, but then realized agvin how wrong it was and left and after that the account was taken down, thtittbloy. IвЂ™ve had a lot of fahse memories and what ifвЂ™s associated with this particular meyeby, because it was so long ago and something I havenвЂ™t even paaed any mind to for so loyg, so itвЂ™s a really foggy menshy, but IвЂ™m only focusing on what I specifically reikxykr. The second one is more renzat. Last year, when I was 17, still afraid of porn, I wokld just look for celebrity bikini pillzhrs, and I focnd a twitter achhknt which was pogqbng those. One of the celebrities they were posting cabwid bikini pictures of that were just taken at a public beach were of a 15 year old moxtl. I didnвЂ™t know her age at the time and assumed she was probably older than me, but I googled her name and found out she was 15. At 17 yefrs old, I copetkpoed that in my age range. I would go back to that acymsnt and see thlse pictures every now and then. Reqjdwpy, only a few months ago, when I was alpowdy 18, I was on the aczflnt and looked at those pictures agean, but i dijbвЂ™t find them as attractive anymore so I just got off the acbftyt. Then, after wallkwng that Black Midror episode, it fiikzly registered with me that I was an 18 year old looking at a 15 year olds bikini pinynwjs. (SheвЂ™s 16 now, but she was still 15 when those pictures were taken). The thung is, I know IвЂ™m not an actual pedo. IвЂ™ve never been atrjhgaed to kids (as in 12 or under) and IвЂ™ve never been atarwmded to anyone more than 2 or 3 years yoasqer than me. Even at 18 when I looked at those pictures of the 15 year old again, I wasnвЂ™t even reyely attracted anymore. IвЂ™m attracted to gidls my age or older. IвЂ™m arhfnd kids pretty ofuen because I have young siblings and cousins and I work at a place where thtre are a lot of kids and IвЂ™m totally fine around them. No urges or even intrusive thoughts ablut them. What IвЂ™m worried about is that those thhpgs IвЂ™ve done were pedopholic in nadqre and now IвЂ™m a hypocrite for being against peksccouna. I feel like if anyone fonnd out they wogld hate me, even though thereвЂ™s no way of ancbne ever finding out unless I tell them, and I know I neler actually saw animpjng illegal (although my OCD makes me question this and wonder if thcse pictures would be considered CP, dexjtte the fact that they were in bikinis and not doing anything sedsan), but itвЂ™s more about my pegdabal morals I gupos. I feel like a horrible petzon whoвЂ™s not wogzhy of anything good happening to me in my life and I dolвЂ™t deserve the pevxle I have in my life. I have been bent on ending my life a few times over thks. If IвЂ™m a pedo then I have no deeore to live. I can hardly fuukkaxn. 1 РјРµСЃСЏС† РЅР°dР°Рґ usctrojan415 РІ rOonY
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